Back when I was a participant in Christianity, I had a
favorite holiday. It was not one that I came to love when I first started my
sojourn through the pantheon of theological possibilities. I began my journey
as a Methodist. Methodists are generally speaking kind people, and their
churches are milk toast. If you like being treated nicely, you will like being
there. They make very few demands upon you, and are appreciative of your
presence and input. It's not a bad place to start.
But like any gateway drug, you want more. I found more in an
Evangelical setting. It was my private college: A mish mash of faiths where
Methodists, Nazarenes, Wesleyans, Free Methodists, American Missionary
Church-ers, Salvation Army kids (Sallies), and Disciple of Christ-ers all
intermingled. There were even Pentecostals in our midst. And eventually I
migrated in their direction. Yes, I was once a member of the Assemblies of God
denomination--and No, I didn't "speak in tongues". I liked the
emotional high I would get from participating in the worship. I loved the
emotional presence of my fellow AG friends. But even the well-grounded and
sincere mentorship of a wonderful pastor couldn't overcome the blatant hypocrisy
they tolerated or my ultimate need for intellectual integrity. A need that
pointed me in the direction of ritual. So like all good things, the pendulum
swings...
And before I knew it, I was immersing myself in liturgy. I
continued my journey in the Episcopal church. It's a great place to experience
ritual through liturgy AND they take anyone into their fold. Nothing scares
them. Not even refugees from denominations that make no sense to them at all!
And there I learned about Church history in a contextual way that took what I
had already experienced in Church as Fellowship and Church as Catharsis to
Church as Ritual via Liturgy. I hung my hat there for a long time. I was
confirmed at the National Cathedral (and through a comedy of errors--multiple
times by multiple bishops!--but that's another story.)
After all of that, I finally realized that as ubiquitous and
pernicious as Christianity is in the life and governance of this nation, it
simply is just an institution. One way to believe. Nothing special. Yet, there are
times when I think back on my participation in this cultural behemoth and hold
fond memories. So back to my original sentence. My favorite holiday was Easter.
My favorite service: Easter Vigil. Why? I loved the fire, and I loved that
moment when you shake those bells for all you're worth and fill the sanctuary
with a cacophony of metallic noise!
Blessed Easter Vigil to my Christian friends. Shake those bells!
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